~In A SpeciaL Way~

Though it's abit too late as this had happened like 4 months ago,but i juz wanna tell the world how special it was.[[Maybe to some people,it's not at all,but...whatever..]]Was it fortunate?A kind of luck?or..wad some people would say,fate?whatever it is,here it goes --->>

08.08.07 ` Wednesday

This is a special day where it all started out..I wont leak out how I met this guy,juz leave it for u guys to make ur guess..

On this day,or should it be 07.08.07?whatever the day was,someone asked me some questions which in my mind,i was thinking if the guy was trying to ask me to be his gf?[kinda thickskin =.=" LoL...]

anyway,i juz acted normally and answered all his questions..he said he had something to ask me when the clock strikes 12,dated 08.08.07.....

True enough,when i was playing GB,the question popped up somewhere[[donno wad's tt called ==!]]

He was like so nervous and shy to ask,but in the end,he grabbed all his courage and shooted that question to me..

And yes,he asked me if i wanted to be his gf,but he also asked me to consider and then tell him about it..

Guess wad happened?I said yes,meaning I would consider about it,but he misunderstood that i agreed to be his gf...

FAINT*

So there it goes,he treated me as his gf,and i kinda treated him as mine too,as it wasnt a bad thing to have a bf,since i did not have one..

However,I was in love with someone else at that time actuali =X So I treated him reali badly,like throwing tantrums,scolding him,or whatever u can think of,juz thinking of ways to break up with him..[[Despite treating him that bad,he still continues to treat me very well,and loves me...]]

But of course i did not succeed..I juz couldnt bear to hurt him..Could it be cuz i have fallen for him?i didnt realise tt in the 1st place after some time later.....

15.09.07 ` Saturday

That is the day he called me when he was here in SG..We chatted on the phone for quite awhile,with my moody and sian tone..which affected him as well,and made him asked me if wad do i treat him as?As a bf,or...?

I answered him I donno,cuz i reali do not know la..

but anyway,he asked me to think abt it and then answer him another time..

I reali spoilt his mood greatly and was so sorry abt it..

However the next day,

16.09.07 ` Sunday

I do not know what came into me..I actuali smsed him during my lunch to ask him if he was free..[[Actuali have excuse to ask him out,cuz he promised to teach me maths de..but u cannot believe how he taught me >.<]]

He must be happy then,as I hoped that I would at least brighten up his mood a lil bit..

Anyway,he said he was free,and we decided to meet in the library to study.. [[Can u believe that Woodlands Library was the place of our 1st date...??]]

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Not going into details,jus wanted to say that since then,I began to realise my feelings for him,and treated him as my bf..My feelings for him grew intensely,and I know he was the one for me,though he's not the type i wanted..

He is like my reflection on the mirror,we are almost similar,juz that he is a guy..

We have almost the same characteristic..We are emotional,hot tempered,and whatever u can see in me,u can also see in him too ba..

Oh ya,we share the same interest and likings as well.. [[recently found out de..]]

Though he's not the best looking guy in the world,but his internal beauty has brought out the beauty in him externally..

Perhaps when u see him,u wont understand what i mean,cuz u do not know him personally..

My dear,Oscar,dont compare yourself with other guys again k?

cuz i juz love the way u r,if u try to change urslf and become the type of guys which i like,u wont be ur original self anymore,whom i fall for in the 1st place..

I juz love ur honesty even though u noe sometimes it would hurt or make me angry,ur care,ur sweetness [though u donno how to sweet talk,but the things which u have done for me,are sweet enough] , the way u treat me like ur precious,always doting on me and showering ur unconditional love upon me..

~Thanks for tolerating me all this while when i throw tamtrum on u as im short tempered..

~Thanks for controlling ur temper,even though u r short tempered like me as well..

~And thanks for all the things u have done for me,which i truly appreciate them alot..

Now,I juz wanna tell u how much i love you,and promise u my love,which i handed my heart over to u,not being afraid that u would return it back to me in shattered pieces..

I feel reali fortunate to have met u,it's like the best thing which have happened in my life!Thanks for filling my life with laughter & happiness..

I Love You Dear!

[[That's all for now...]]

[[Message for my dear : Don't laugh when u read this ah..Love you,muackxx]]